Thank you all for visiting my journal and your sweet encouragement!!! I appreciate you all so much!!!
I am here every day and this lifestyle is is something I am very dedicated to, because I believe in it. I have always lost weight by fasting, from the time I was in my early teens. In my early 30's I fasted for an extended period of time armed with a booklet with what I now know to be alot of mis-information. The booklet said that if you wanted to completely cleanse yourself of toxins that you should fast until your hunger returns. The program was centered around the concept of listening to your hunger to know the condition of your health.
It said that the first three days you would constantly be hungry. After that the hunger would go away. The next stage your body was in was getting fuel from the worst gunk in your body and when it began getting fuel from your muscles, then hunger would return, and that is how you would know that your fast was over.
I've never talked about this, because after I did it I realized how crazy stupid it was. The booklet was written by a medical doctor and sounded like he knew what he was talking about. It wasn't until I had fasted for 63 days that it dawned on me that I might never feel hungry. How far was I going to let this go?
I started eating by drinking a seltzer, that had a little bit of fruit juice in it. I felt stronger emmediatly, but then my heart started jumping and I started having to spit constantly. I was so weak by this time. I think I basically had no muscles left. I couldnt step up a step or get into a car without help.
I was helpless by this time and needed help with everything. It gave me time to think how stupid fasting was and how there is alot of mis-information out there. I was following the advice of this medical doctor and could have killed myself in the process. My intention was just to be healthy. I was willing to do whatever it took to do that, but did not have the right plan, obviously! I was totally on the wrong path.
But, it occured to me that maybe I had to be that extreme and suffer the consequences of that before I would have learned my lesson for good regarding fasting. I have never fasted again since that time.
But, that was when I started gaining weight like crazy. I had totally wiped out my metabolism. Holly Rigsby says, "Your muscle is your metabolism." well, I had just destroyed my metabolism.
My answer was to get my metabolism back by exercising. To me, exercise = cardio. So, here I was willing again to do whatever it took to get my body back and so I did cardio to an extreme! But, I still wasnt building my metabolism back! I was teaching my body that it better hang onto the fat because she is either in a famine or she is constantly running for her life!
I've carried on my extreme views on food by only eating real supportive food. That has been a good thing for me as I have been for the most part able to keep the symptoms of Eppstein-Barr at bay by keeping my immune system built up.
But, I still have not been able to get the fat off.
That is, till I found Club Fit Yummy Mummy. So, results is what I was after all the time. If I didn't get results then I would just step up my efforts. Though the efforts were in the wrong area. Club FYM has been an answer to a hearts cry. The Bible says that if you cry out to God, He will give you the answers you are seeking. I am so thankful to be here and finally feel like I am in the right place with the right information and the support and encouragement I need to get my body back better than ever.
Even though overeating is not an issue for me I can eat very little and it makes me gain weight. So, I'm having to put my focus on keeping the nutrition as high and as supportive as possible while keeping the calories pretty low, and just be patient while my body builds it's muscle/metabolism base back up with these awesome resistance exercises.
I struggle with the slowness of this process. I can't compare myself with others. I have to make the wisest choices every step of the way. I have to be careful and mindful. I do everything I can to stay in a possitive mindset and stay motivated and fend off discouragement. I am reaping in my body all the abuse that I have sown to it in my past, and just trying to love it and nurture it back to what it was meant to be.
So, thank you all for your encouraging words and your cheers and possitive re-enforcement. I feed off of and get so much energy for the journey from all of you!!! Hugs and love to you all!!!
